The Relapse

In the mist of my journey I got to a point where I started to realize I was affected by traumas. Never had I acknowledged them but they were subconsciously weighing very heavy on me. So, instead of bottling up my emotions like I usually do, I explored the act of addressing those issues. How many of you know that tackling traumas is a difficult battle? How many of you know the emotions and feelings that come along with unpacking those things? I am not one for confrontation but not validating my own feelings was causing so much damage not only to myself but the things I cherished most in life. I had to make a conscious yet difficult decision to stop hiding behind it. I had to put on my big girl pants and do the work. I am honestly in the most uncomfortable place I have ever been in mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. But, I am grateful for the experience. I can not spend another 32 years of my life not honoring myself first. And it is definitely something to get used to because I always put the needs of others before my own. This chapter of my life has literally been writing itself because of it. I'm so grateful for those who have encouraged this part of my story because if not, I would have missed out on something I never knew was so important to me. So today, I challenge you to do the work. I challenge you to acknowledge that you come first. I challenge you to show up for yourself because you deserve it. There is no time like the present to take accountability for your own choices in life. I encourage this season of enlightenment and pray you are able to grace through the journey.

Ase.