Running Away From God's Presence

So by now I know we can all agree that 2020 was one for the books. I can personally say I lost and gained in multiple ways. I promised myself that I wouldn't be a victim of circumstance yet the mental capacity I needed failed me. I thought by participating in Lent I would find clarity during my fasting, I was wrong. I was made to understand that I was only replacing one distraction with another. I felt defeated because I've usually been successful during other Lenten season's. But I was actually learning a lot about myself. For example, I learned I was suffering from a childhood trauma that causes me not to communicate my feelings correctly. I'm working through it though. I've also come to understand that people are human and not perfect just as I'm flawed. And though I don't have to be disappointed with people for being imperfect, I can still hold people accountable for their actions. Most importantly, I understood how certain things have caused me to hide from God's presence. In the times I've felt ashamed to even bow my head to pray, God still saw me as worthy. And because of who He is I'm slowly finding my way back to him. I'm not sure of your religious practices or your spiritual beliefs but find something to ground yourself in. God's presence is my safe haven and I plan to dwell there.

Ase.